Its Just Lif3

I really don't wana live this way, finding meaning in the every word i say. I don't wana keep any secrets, letting go all my past regrets. I don't wana stay 'high' any longer, i know it won't make me stronger. I don't want to feel this emptiness inside of me , coz everyday i feel like its killing me. I don't want to hate anyone, just want to give all my love to someone. I don't want to see anything from my eyes, seeing everything my heart cries. I just want to be all alone inside myself, the time has come to know the "true" self.

जाने क्यों अब भी चल रही है मेरी "साँसें" शायद ज़िन्दगी को पता नहीं के  किसी के लिए हम अपनी "जान " दे चुके हैं !

Somewhere deep down inside of me I remember a person i used to be Who hate to lie about the things he used to do Now tell me why he faded away with time? He was my only ray of light In the darkness when there's nothing in sight He told me there's nothing to fear I'll be with you so shed all your tears. I wish he can be here now Without him i feel empty and broken All my faith in God has shaken Feels like my soul has been taken...

ऊड़ता हुआ मुसाफिर  क्या कभी देखा है तुमने ? क्या कभी सोचा है की मौत को भी देखा होगा उसने करीब से ? क्या बातें करता होगा हवाओं से क्या कभी सोचा है तुमने ? हर नए सफ़र में क्या कहनीं लिखता होगा क्या कभी यकीन किया होगा उसपे ? तकलीफों में भी आज़ादी का एहसास होता है उसे कभी महसूस किया है तुमने ? जंगलों में भटकने पर भी कभी अच्छा लगा है तुम्हे ? बारिश की उन् तीखी बूंदों से कभी गुफ्तगू की है तुमने ? शारीर से बहार भी कभी किसी को महसूस किया है तुमने ? जितनी भी घेराई में उतरता है उतना ही पानी कम लगता है उसे ! इन् सबका एहसास कौन कर सकता है यह कभी पुछा है तुमने ? इन् सभी एहसासों को करीब से जीया है हमने !!

एक अजीब सा दर्द है, जो बिन बुलाये चला आता है  ज़िन्दगी का एहसास कराके, ना जाने कहाँ चला जाता है  ख़ुशी से ज्यादा ना जाने क्यूँ , इस दर्द में मज़ा आता है  जाने क्या कशिश है इसमें , की इसे में भुला नहीं पाता हूँ  ऐसा लगता है इससे मेरा , न जाने कितने जन्मो का नाता है  इसलिए तो यह हमेशा ,अपनों की तरह बिन बुलाये चला आता है !!

अकेला हूँ मुझे और ना सताओ  चैन से रहने दो मेरे पास ना आओ  ग़मों में डूबा हूँ, अब और ना रुलाओ,  रहता हूँ नशे में , अब होश में ना लाओ | ठोकर खाके गिर चुका हूँ, अब कोई ना उठाओ, खो चुका हूँ सब कुछ , अब और ना बहलाओ | अकेला हूँ मुझे और ना सताओ चैन से रहने दो मेरे पास ना आओ गुम हो गया अंधेरो में , अब उजाला ना दिखाओ , दर्द का आदि हो चुका हूँ , ज़ख्मों पे अब मरहम ना लगाओ | भूल गया हुआ जो कुछ , अब उसे याद ना दिलाओ, बहुत दूर जा चुका हूँ, मुझे अब भूल जाओ | अकेला हूँ मुझे और ना सताओ चैन से रहने दो मेरे पास ना आओ शोलों पे चलना सिख गया हूँ, रास्तों पे फूल ना बिछाओ, झूठे खवाबों में गुम हो गया हूँ , हकीक़त की याद मत दिलाओ | तन्हाइयों की ख़ामोशी सुनता हूँ , अब महफ़िलो में मत बुलाओ , मौत का इंतज़ार कर रहा हूँ, अब जीना मत सिखाओ | अकेला हूँ मुझे और ना सताओ चैन से रहने दो मेरे पास ना आओ.. .

कैसे बताएं उसे की कितना चाहते हैं , चाहकर भी उससे बता नहीं पायेंगे !  कैसे समझाएं उसे की कितना प्यार करते हैं , प्यार करें तोह भी वोह समझ नहीं पायेंगे !  कैसे यकीन दिलाएं की मर जायेंगे उसके बिना , मर भी जाएँ तोह यकीन नहीं दिला पायेंगे ! कैसे कहें दिल से की भूल जाए उसे , भूल भी जाएँ तोह भूल नहीं पायेंगे !

Children in class the lies they're learning So that off to work they'll be earning To make this world keep turning In a funeral pyre they'll be burning. Running and withering in the sun Their ultimate fate they can't overrun Lonely behind their masks Busy doing their meaningless tasks. Trapped inside this bag of flesh Like a clinging cold hard metal mesh Striving, ever striving to find meaning in this senseless living. Living out their miserable fate For their inevitable death they wait Already dead before they die Living out a great big lie. Twisting turning, ever falling The flames of hell are ever calling Into the death's sweet & cold embrace Real & honest friend of the human race. Came from nothing you meant nothing To no one your life means nothing In the end you'll die leaving this petty world of lie.

I have grown way too lonely   wounded my pride  i cry out to the heavens  pain please let me be  or death come make me your bride  i know no answers  no cure for this pain  please stop my crying tears fallin like Rain and set this pain free For i can feel nothing but empty despair tired of endings life is unfair...

I've been lost   in this path of life i've seen the dark side of mine there is no destination to reach all im seeing is lies. Ravaged by the ticking time struggled to pass every day there is no other way and i cried almost died for years now i've lied. I just want to be me to know how it feels to be free but thats not possible in this life coz im tired of trying now thers's no point in crying.

Being a biker means   not going with the normal flow or moving slow. Being a biker means enjoying the freedom forgetting the daily boredom. Being a biker means riding in the rain and smiling again. Being a biker means feeling the passion it brings and hearing the wind sings. Being a biker means not acting like a poser but riding hard your motor. Being a biker is more then words and acts Being a biker is in the soul. Being a biker depends not on a ride it is a state of mind. For me, Being a biker means flying down to somewhere I've never been, and for that i thank God that I was born with Biker Blood in me.

Standing at a corner where light cannot reach me there lost my hope to live im empty with nothing to give alone with all my pain want to board the devil's train only death can set me free know you'll also agree can't tell what i have felt know the point where my soul melt lost in the my darkest dream deep inside i feel the scream..

Pain is here pain is there Pain is what i feel everywhere Pain that struck my soul  just like a lightning bolt. i sit alone and listen to the sound of emptiness singing to me about broken heart and broken dreams. i watch others and smile at their joy but at times the hurt is raw remainiding me of what i don't have. never touching the realness of a lovers face and hair only staring at nothingness and feeling more alone then i ever believe i could. I scream in my mind missing what I was trying to be what I'm not Seeking solitude that can never be found. No more i feel the pain Pain of losing you Pain of a shattered dream Pain of heart burning in flames. Pain is my only friend its a soul and part of you he will never leave me and you too it shows the world the real "YOU"...

Nothing matters to me anymore   neither the dreams, nor the truth. neither the hope of love, nor the emptiness of being alone. neither the promises made, nor the forgotten lies. neither those fake smiles, nor the dry tears. neither the thought of holding you, nor the fear of sleeping all alone. neither the bed of roses, nor the carpet of thorns. neither the chaos life, nor the silent death. neither the ecstasy of drugs, nor the unpleasant hangovers. neither the honest opinions, nor the corrupt thoughts. neither the fulfilling days, nor the empty years. neither the sound of music, nor the silence of soul. I Dream about nothing, and nothingness dreams about me.

छुपा है हर एक हसीन चहेरे के पीछे ना जाने कौन सा गम ? अब दिखाई देता है हर ख़ुशी के पीछे ना जाने कुछ अनकहा सा दर्द ? क्यों बर्दाश्त करते हैं लोग इस बेरंग बेहसीन ज़िन्दगी को ?  क्यों दीखता है हर ज़िन्दगी के पीछे वो मौत का आलम ?  क्यों भटकते है अँधेरी गलियों में पाने को जो मिलना किस्मत में नहीं ? क्यों सहते है उस दर्द को जो लिखा उनकी हाथों की लकीरों में नहीं ? क्यूँ छुपाते हैं दिल के दर्द को चेहरे की मुस्कुराहट के पीछे जब पता है उन्हें घूम रहे है सभी वोही दर्द लिए !

I love you my friends You all are amazing this i can tell you  without crystal gazing. Bcoz you’re YOU Everything about you is unique You are so special in my book will preserve you like antique. I’d do anything for you without any reason Will stay with you for any number of season. Don’t ever feel lonely I’ll b ur company Our love will be the same just like d millionth symphony. My beautiful friends I will never want or need And even if I bleed I know you’ll be there looking after me. That’s just how you are I have faith in you My dear friends I Love You…..

You are so beautiful   that words cannot explain I fell for your love and cannot refrain.  You are more divine than a thousand others Never have I known such a lover. Your heart is precious your love's infectious Your spirit is true I can't help but love you. Your soul is pure of that im sure Want to spend my precious time only with you. Your smile is so fine just like the taste of wine We are eternally one by the heart there is no way for us to part...

Sitting in dark lonely room, trying to recall her pretty face lost in love’s embrace. when i first talked to her things were easy and feel so right she graced me with her beautiful smile. i was floating on air flying high thought that i would never fall but then suddenly hit the wall. she left me all alone under these empty skies with a pain deep inside my lonely heart. The cold hard pain killed my spirit of love now i walk in the street lonely at night looking at the flashes of light passing by. oh my sweet lover who feels not the same as i do for her but that is her right. wish I’d kept my feelings to myself everything in life was so good then i had to ruin it like a fool, A fool in love…

I think there’s two side of me with a constant struggle of me and thee Tearing me two ways apart stopping me from sharing the art one is a virtuous child who cries when someone takes his toys the other is a selfish fool acting like a stupid tool one is a thoughtful soul other likes to rock’n'roll and then there is ‘I’ standing in the dark waiting for the light searching for the true identity looking at those two entity…

Where to go from here, my Love! Im tired from running and hiding from the memories I have of you in my heart. Gone are the days when Looking into your eyes was Like gazing into the sky & seeing your smile was like Confronting the divine. With nowhere to go, I only see a way to reach you and that is ripping my heart through with the memories of time I spent with you..